It has been 6 months since I took the plunge and sacrificed my "Isaac". It has been a crazy sometimes desperate, sometimes exhilarating ride.There were times when I didn't know up from down and there were times where everything seemed to melt into place....only to be shaken up again.
Today is day 740. At times, I could barely discern God's presence while other times, He overwhelmed me. But through it all, He reminded me of His promise: "I will never leave you nor forsake you". There were times when I wondered if I did the right thing and cried out to him in desperation for some reassurance. He always met me. When I reached out for him, He was always there.
Over two years of praying and waiting and praying and waiting and waiting some more. Now at last, God is moving all around me, and its not just evident to only me anymore. Now others see it too. They are coming to realize that what they deemed crazy and what they thought was not from the Lord because it was so outrageous, really is actually from Him.
He is an outrageous God. He is my God. Mine.
Now as I look around me, I can finally see the evidence of what I have always known. God is God and I am his creation. He knows exactly what I need and where I need to be. He knows how to get me to where I need to go.
Now all I can do is praise Him. Yes, He told me to sacrifice my Isaac. He told me to do the one thing I never wanted to do. But he honored my obedience,even though it was delayed, even though I wasn't eager to do it. Even when every part of me wanted to pull back. He, in His mercy, honored it. My world imploded and everything that was important to me was ripped apart. But God. But God kept me through it all.
He centered me on Him. When everything was spinning out of control, I ran to that secret place in the shadow of his wings. There he reminded me that He is my Father. More than that, He is my God.
Why should I worry? Why should I be anxious? I was not and I am still not. Because I knew - I know - one thing more than anything else. My God is my God. He will never let me go. He will never leave me alone. He will always provide.
My God is my God. When nothing is working out and when everything is going well, my God is my God.
My God is my God. No matter what storms are raging around me, no matter if its sunshine and roses all around, My God is my God,
Its Day 740 and everything is still scattered, but for now and always, My God is My God.
HALLELUJAH!
Sincerely,
Praising Him Who Saved Me
