The Other Side

It has been 6 months since I took the plunge and  sacrificed my "Isaac". It has been a crazy sometimes desperate, sometimes exhilarating ride.There were times when I didn't know up from down and there were times where everything seemed to melt into place....only to be shaken up again.

Today is day 740. At times, I could barely discern God's presence while other times, He overwhelmed me. But through it all, He reminded me of His promise: "I will never leave you nor forsake you". There were times when I wondered if  I did the right thing and cried out to him in desperation for some reassurance. He always met me. When I reached out for him, He was always there.

Over two years of praying and waiting and praying and waiting and waiting some more. Now at last, God is moving all around me, and its not just evident to only me anymore. Now others see it too. They are coming to realize that what they deemed crazy and what they thought was not from the Lord because it was so outrageous, really is actually from Him.

He is an outrageous God. He is my God. Mine.

Now as I look around me, I can finally see the evidence of what I have always known. God is God and  I am his creation. He knows exactly what I need and where I need to be. He knows how to get me to where I need to go.

Now all I can do is praise Him. Yes, He told me to sacrifice my Isaac. He told me to do the one thing I never wanted to do. But he honored my obedience,even though it was delayed, even though I wasn't eager to do it. Even when every part of me wanted to pull back. He, in His mercy, honored it. My world imploded and everything that was important to me was ripped apart. But God. But God kept me through it all.

He centered me on Him. When everything was spinning out of control, I ran to that secret place in the shadow of his wings. There he reminded me that He is my Father. More than that, He is my God.

Why should I worry? Why should I be anxious? I was not and I am still not. Because I knew - I know - one thing more than anything else. My God is my God. He will never let me go. He will never leave me alone. He will always provide.

My God is my God. When nothing is working out and when everything is going well, my God is my God.

My God is my God. No matter what storms are raging around me, no matter if its sunshine and roses all around, My God is my God,

Its Day 740 and everything is still scattered, but for now and always, My God is My God.

HALLELUJAH!

Sincerely,
Praising Him Who Saved Me

About Me

I called this blog "bridewithoutblemish"  according to the verse in Ephesians 5 where it says Jesus will present the Church to himself as a bride without spot or blemish. Let me start this by saying I am not perfect. I am a work in progress and I definitely don't see myself as a "Bride without blemish". That being said, I stand today only as a result of His mercy and as a testament of His never ending patience with me.

My testimony is nothing dramatic.Jesus Christ saved me when I was young and it is because of his grace that I am still standing here.  I grew up in a Christian home surrounded by a loving family who raised me up to fear the Lord. I was saved and baptized and filed with the Holy Spirit at a young age.

My calling, I know, is to go into missions. I grew up in the US but I do not want to stay here. I want to go to third world countries and serve him there among the lost and forgotten children of the world.

I am almost 24 and not yet married but I grew up in the Indian Community where arranged marriages are the norm (we will see how that goes lol)

I am not really sure why exactly I started this blog. I do not even know if I will keep it up to date. It was just an idea I had yesterday and I figured I might as well. Who knows what He could do through this, right?

The goal of my life is to glorify Him who called me.

More on this section later as I think of it :)

Sincerely,
Praising Him Who Saved Me